i want to be completely honest, i feel like i need a place to vent EVERYTHING.
its a shame cause i find it so hard to speak openly in the realworld.
i just hope this forum can offer me the support and hopefully friendship that i need/want :/

but here goes.
im chelsea, im 19 and i’m suffering from borderline personality disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder and agraphobia.
i have been sectioned twice since turning 16, and i only had a little break inbetween to two admissions so it feels like forever which is so $#%^.
to cope with my life, i selfharm and have been since i was 11.

but im currently on a ward that specialises in personality disorders and the help i have recieved is immense, this is the best i have felt in a long time. which sounds like a massive achievement, but to be fair its an anti-climax.
when your whole life is filled with nothing but pain and abuse, it feels impossible to live a normal life sometimes. so yeah i feel better, but im not doing well.
hope that makes sense :’)

i cannot believe im going to post this on a website that has hundreds of users = definition of madness.
but thats me, well i suppose this post is just the beginning…..