Okay, so I changed my mind about the not taking sulbutiamine.

I figure I should stay on it for a week or so and give it a chance.

Today, after taking it, I got the same feeling as yesterday morning. I don't know quite what it is, like a clarity or executive feeling. Kinda an increased confidence and reduced neuroticism.

Still, it has only been a few hours, and I am already feeling it wear off.

Waiting for computer science to start, I did talk to someone with little to no anxiety on my part. A guy approached me and asked me what I had done for the homework, and showed him my paper and explained that I had just gone through the slides and asked if there was anything specifically that he was talking about. He said that it looked like we had done about the same thing, and went away. In fact, it seemed like HE was the one with anxiety, which I wouldn't be too surprised of since it is CSCI, and Asperger's/social anxiety is the norm there (I fit right in, ha ha).

There still isn't much anti-fatigue factor. There is a good muscle feeling, but thinking of doing stuff still makes me feel like it will make me tired and I can't gather enough mental energy to do anything like exercise. I guess it doesn't cure laziness.

I think I am going to buy something, though, pregnenolone. It is anti-anxiety, and I figure it may be worth a try for energy. I figure it can't hurt, especially considering that I likely have sorta low sex-hormones in the first place, and it is a pretty safe place to boost them from.

Inspired by the schizoid workout thread, I am kinda wanting to get into shape a little. Currently, I look a lot like someone with aids, so adding a bit of muscle/fat probably wouldn't hurt. I have heard that being "in shape" actually physically and mentally feels pretty good. I guess I could give it a shot. Plus it would be nice to lower my heart rate a bit. Resting is about 90 right now, and it could be lower. My BP is good now, but the heart rate doesn't seem to want to go down.

The aspect of repetitive exercises seems relaxing to me.

A lot of this probably has something to do with being rejected by the girl, but it isn't conscious.

I kinda want to play Guild Wars 2, but I know my character looks exactly like the girl I like, and that could be triggering or something.