Well, I went to the therapist on 10-30 to find out my results. He advised me that the test was invalid, he said that the results were such that he would like for me to retake the exam. I said so you think I am a liar? He said that the test did not indicate lying but the results were such that he was not expecting so he wants to read the questions to me. So then I asked, Do you think I am mentally incompetent to understand such simplistic questions? He said that is not at all it, he thinks maybe if I can clarify some answers it would help. I was in a complete and utter black out mode, Ryleigh took over cussed out the dr and explained that at the moment I was feeling very aggressive and agitated and was worried I would lose control. I left his office where I came home had a breakdown and grabbed the lamp off of the dresser and completely destroyed my room, the lamp and proceeded to cut myself on glass in four places. I stayed in that rage with the deafening scream in my head until my SO restrained me from behind and placed me on the bed. I have felt off since that day, things are very muddled and murky I don't know how to explain it.

http://youtu.be/KGXdxtZZisE

I need to vent, I am probably just having a moment but I came to this site looking for like-minded people, conversations and assistance. Where the hell is it? Do you need a special F***ing handshake or something to get a response? I see people viewing things I write but almost not a single response as though they read it to see what's what and then move on. If you read something that someone says and they clearly need some advice or help etc etc etc, why lurk through their story and not say something to them or lead them in the direction that may help them? Just a thought but who am I?

I woke up today feeling worse than I have been ( which is a feat) I called my fam doc and they were able to get me in. Looks like I have a case of severe bronchitis. They doc prescribed Cipro and Mucinex.

SO on weds I woke up with a sore throat. Thursday sore throat with a cough. Now I am pretty sure it is a respiratory infection and ear infections in both ears. I feel like I have been hit in the ribs with a baseball bat from coughing so much...... UGGGGHHHH