I hate myself so much, and THERE IS NO ONE WHO CAN HELP ME
Whyyyyy
stupid ugly DSM-IV
I will buy 4565776886 copies of it
then I print out and glue MY thoughts in it under the symptoms of a new disease
Then I leave the altered DSM-IV in psychiatrists offices
AND THEN I WILL FINALLY BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY |
SERVES EVERYBODY RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- Hello, this is useless selfish rambling like any other blog; I don't even try to make it sound any more attractive -

Today was a lovely day, since I finally managed to escape from this horrible laziness thats just BEYOND laziness. I was at my grandmothers house and I finally made some of a plan in my head, I looked up concurrents of the magazine for disabled youngsters I write my thesis about. Not much, only 3 A4, but for me...it felt like a whole working day at the haven. Seriously, when you keep in mind that my favorite hobby lately is laying in bed, everything useable I am able to produce is ...I don't even have words for it.

And my mother went shopping for a winter coat (as always she wants my opinion before she buys it and I never show my preference because I don't think she should care about my opinion at all)
and I bought some shampoo. I think I finally found the holy grail that will transform my strawhair into something..respectable. My father bought me and himself an anti foot fungus cream.

I haven't done as much for my thesis as I should have, but it was at least enough to be able to answer my dad "Yes" when he asked if I did something for my study. Its not great when you have to lie "yes" and when they ask "then what have you done" you still have to admit you didn't do anything.
So, I hope from now on it will become any better.... I really want to finish school but I'm just so goddamn lazy. And I'm 22, I guess that makes it even worse