All day , everyday, I keep thinking....I just want to die....I want a mommy and a daddy

Peace and love upon all living things. May all living things be at ease. May all living things be filled with joy. Hate never conquers hate , only love conquers hate. In this world , in all worls , never has hate conquered love. Jesus the Messiah said , "that ye love God and love one another , that is the law and the prophets." Jesus is the Word of God who is Love. Only love makes life worth living. To be without love , this is hell , the second death.

Since my traumatic brain injury , i have been something else.... life is love and death to me...but the fire still burns every now and then , giving just enough light so that I can recognize the hateful, deviant evil that still lurks beneath this soft exterior. Between agony and apathy , I am awake. Between sleep and intoxication, I am death , destroyer of worlds.

Anatta. No self. Who are we? Someone would answer with their profession , or main occupation , saying , "I am a mother , I am a mechanic , I am a soldier..." but that is not you. We also eat , we sleep , we feel. But we are not our actions. We are not our feelings. Are we then the things we have done? "I am mentally ill , I am a murderer , I am a thief..." But what of the other things we have done? Are we slipper , who slips , because we fell one time? Are we a sneezer , because we sneeze? No , the self is an illusion , a wall build by our upbringing that separates us from others and breeds discontent. We are, but I am not. The interdependent nature of reality makes clear the impossibility of a self. We are One , and We are Love.

Life is suffering. Suffering results from incorrect views and delusions. There is a way to end suffering. The way to end suffering is mastery of the self. I neither am nor am I not. I neither desire nor do I not desire. I am unbound , the deathless one , him who has awakened . Know that in ceasing of striving , there is the utter stillness of peace. Love yourself, that you may love others as yourself , Love One another as God hath loved you , Love one another , as I have loved you. Go in peace , and sin no more. Namaste brothers and sisters , fathers and mothers .