Introduction to Me (Possible Trigger- Read At Your Own Risk)
Hi there! So, I'm StawberrySandstorm. I'm relatively new here to these forums as of 11-5-2013.


A Little About Myself:

I like to draw. I'm currently majoring in drawing at college...which isn't going so well at the moment. I also like anime and it influences my art style a lot...even though my teachers don't like it. I'd love to study abroad as I love foreign language and world culture. I also like to ice skate as I've done it for 13 years. Currently I've also gotten into making rosaries as it's a way I cope with life's challenges...even if it only can do so much.



(****Trigger Warning****. If you don't want to read this next part that's fine. Just skip to where it says "All Clear".)

I'm going through a lot of problems in my life at the moment. I recently lost my grandmother to cancer back in January of 2013. The grieving process is unbearable. I've also had depression prior to her passing. To make matters worse, I'm fairly certain I have BPD. I'll be seeing a psychietrist [sp?] over the summer to be officially diagnosed. In the meantime, I'm reading self-help books. I'm also a cutter; have been for almost 5 years. I've saved 4 people from committing suicide over those years, yet have continually failed to save myself from such thoughts. I struggle with the medication on and off. Either I take them and have elusid [sp?] dreams that make me wake up crying, or not take them and risk having what I call "suicide scares". To think that an honor student, graduating in the top percentile of her class, who's also a Girl Scout who earned her Bronze and Silver Award, who's also someone who got numerous awards for her artwork, could sink to such a low, depraved, and empty state of being. It just goes to show that even the most successful of people have their fair share of problems. Moving on. My mom has a problem with me being almost 20 and not fully able to get/maintain a job let alone maintain personal hygeine [sp?] physically and mentally/emotionally. She can be a little insensitive, but she's got an impulsive personality as well. As for my father...well... He lives with his wife over 100 miles away. He's also an alcoholic, a player, and in my opinion a semi-paranoid lunatic. But that's a story for a rainy day. On top of this mountain of cow patties, I also have Asperger's/High Functioning Autism/PDD-NOS, ADD/ADHD, and OCD. How do you like them apples? Because it's made me rotten, inside and out.

(****All Clear*****)

I guess that's about all I have to say for now. I really would prefer not to give out my other things (YouTube, DeviantART, Skype, ect.) at this time, as to not reveal my identity. Once I get to know some of you better, maybe. So for now please do not ask me out right for this info because you will not get it.

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