Well, another year filled with, false smiles, fake emotions, empty promises and unforgiven thoughts. I have enjoyed my summer, basically, worked out, cleaned up around the house and played video games. I guess tomorrow I have to get back into my "people preferred" state of mind or persona. I have a friend that would sometimes ask me for help about "his girl", asking me for help in things such as "if she acts 'this' way, when I tell her 'this' what should I do?" and so on. Its an annoyance... an annoyance that I have to put on the caring face, even though I don't care, and give the thoughtful advice, even though its just plain common sense. Another school year, where I can't be myself, say what I want to say, or do what I want to do...I just have to act accordingly, and in favor to keep people from knowing who I really I'm. Sometimes my so called "friends", would tell me things that I am suppose to feel sorry about or I am suppose to say "it will be okay", but in my mind I wish I can just tell them, "if your looking for sympathy, you are not going to get it from me."