I've been feeling so much better about myself and don't really focus on my looks that much anymore. Unfortunately, I'm still not acting like a normal teenager. I'm almost 18 and I haven't done anything normal teenagers do, I still don't really have friends, and I have no idea what I'm doing or where I'm headed. I guess I lost myself along the way, I have to find myself again.

Just sharing some smiles and joy with you all!

So, being a teenager, and inexperienced in the world of relationships, it's no surprise that my first one has ended so soon. But that's alright. I'm actually in a really good state emotionally right now. I was the one who ended it, unfortunately, as we discovered some very fundamental differences between us and we were not headed in the same direction in life. However, I'm grateful for the experience I had and the perspective I've gained from being in a relationship. I learned so much about myself and this person helped me realize that I had been wasting my life away. I'm ready to go out and start living, I may not jump in head first, but little by little, I am sure I am going to be able to live a decent life and be happy. Somewhere down the road, I'll find someone else who is better suited for me.

Most importantly, I regret nothing.

Well then, a lot has happened over the week! I am now officially in my first ever relationship
Now, I'm only 17 so who knows how long this will last or how serious it will get, but one thing I do know is that this person is very supportive of me and came into my life when I needed them.
Here's to life!

Hey guys! So, I'm still struggling a lot, but I'm not nearly as bad as I used to be. I can leave the house and I don't check as often as I used to. I wear less makeup and don't panic if I have acne. Things bother me less and I'm definitely improving! But I realized that I'm almost an adult now and I have been wasting my life away by sitting in my house feeling sorry for myself. Now is such a crucial time in my life and I have to put myself out there and get going! I'm going to get my permit and start driving soon so maybe that will help me out. I need to get my life going, wherever it's headed!