My trauma has been weighing on me a bit more lately. I think I’m handling it better than I did before, but it still takes its toll. I’m a little worried about how today, Thanksgiving, is going to go for me. It being the second since my dad passed away. Last year, there was quite a bit of talk about him, lamenting how he couldn’t be here to join us (not that he ever would be). But most of the immediate fam knows he abused me for years. Only my mom knows the full extent, the rest just know it as abuse. During my family reunion over the summer, everyone did good with not talking about him around me much, so I’m hoping it’ll be the same for Thanksgiving this year. If I’m lucky, I’ll be able to use this day to unwind. Visit with family, eat food and maybe even have a some drinks. I will have boyfriendish spending Thanksgiving with us too, so I’m feeling happy about that. We’ll be putting up the guise that we’re together romantically, but no matter. I’m just happy to have him here. Hopefully today can just be a good day for me.

Hoping you had a great Turkey Day <3

I did. Thank you.