I made a decision to quit my medication today because I don't like it. I have talked to my doctors before about it but they are scared of what will happen if I quit taking it, so they tell me it can't be done. I think like this - It's my head, my life and my concequences.

They don't know what it does to the head taking these drugs and they can't be inside my head. All the "medicine" I have taken has made me feel like $#%^ - twitching, can't stand sunlight, no orgasm, no happiness, no sadness, anxiety, no creativity....

Creativity brings me to the point. I play guitar and sing, I also make my own songs. On this medicine I can't write anything because I don't feel anything. It's important to me to do my music. I don't think I am going to be a star or anything, but the music is my biggest therapy. Much bigger than these $#%^ pills they are pushing to me.

I am currently on 10 mg of abilify, last night I cut it down to 7.5 mg. I will do 7.5 mg for one week, then 5 mg for two weeks, 2.5 mg for one week and then I'm off.
I will update this blog and write down how it's going.