I'm feeling very lonely at the moment I spoke to my closest friend today and it made me miss her.ive completely isolated my self and I'm scared I'll lose her, I've already lost my two closest school friends!

I really want to tell her what's going on in my head but I don't know how to. And I'm scarred of her reaction. But then a part of me doesn't want to tell her because I'm ebarassed, and I'd rather keep my crazy thoughts to myself.

We live about an hour apart, so I always go through to her house. But this week end she is coming to mine. I'm so worried about going out here as I know a lot of people and I'm worried incase I bump into someone I know. Thats always on my mind when I'm out as I have deteriorated a lot scince seeing people I went to school with. Everyone thought I was ugly then imagine what they would think now!!!!!!

I can't take this anymore. I hate myself!!!!! Why can't it be over???? There's only one way out!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE,!!!! I justvwant to blow up into a million pieces!!! I want this feeling to go away! Why am I like this? I don't know what to do! I. So I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MY SELF

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I am so frustrated right now! I just want to scream!!!!!!!! I can't take this I don't know what to do! I want to blow up into a million peices. I want this feeling to go away! Why did this happen to me!!!!!! What do I do now?

I can't take this much longer!