So i had a wonderful christmas with friends and family it was one filled with lots of fun and laughter and so much hope. Its overwhelming to think of the difference between last year and this. I am so greatul for the people that have supported and invested in me. Being back here has made me realise even more how lucky i am to have had the opportunity i have had. It kinda breaks my heart knowing that there are so many people who need help and support but are unable to receive it. Despite all the downfalls of the healthcare system here it is a bloody good thing we do have it and actually although i feel they failed me in alot of ways im glad it was there and i at least got some kind of help through them.

I am planning a trip to uganda in 2013 for 10 days which is very exciting and i am currently trying to think of ways to fund raise. i love arts and crafts so i am trying to make lots of cards and other bits to hopefully try and sell but i'm abut of a perfectionist and therfore it takes me a while.

Earlier in my week i was really tempted to hurt myself but i managed to hold off so i am very proud of myself for that and now my urges and sh thoughts have gone so yay.

Thankyou to everyone here who helped me through the darkest loneliest moments of my life and who spent lots of time pm'ing me when i was suicidal i know now life is worth it. I only hope i can now support people in the same way. You guys are awesome and i really value this comunity