Re: Did I throw away my life? Don't think of me as an awful person! by
kissy on Tue Nov 05, 2013 11:10 pm
I am 28 and know exactly what you're talking about. to do nothing but fantasize and create your own world...then realize none of those things will come true and tjat you know nothing practical about the real world. I even have a boyfriend in my head. yeah, imaginary boyfriend. he's asian, skinny, and has a shaved head. I started trippin out today when this dude in a white truck was behind me looking at me...looked similar to the guy in my head. anyway, I got on disability a fews years ago for schizoaffective and paranoid personality. I have zero friends. indidnt in school, have none online. tomorrow, I'm actually getting a job interview. after the countless ppl I've reached out to online for support or friendship with no mutual interesr, maybe workkng after these years of isolation will at least help me feel loke a part of the world. I hope knowing someone is sortain the same boat helps. I saw no replies...figured id be the first. later!