Hi and Welcome Hartlepool_lad,

I’m sorry you have been treated so cruelly in the past. That's a lot to have to cope with/recover from. I hope you find it helpful and supportive to be here and wish you all the best for the future.

*hugs*
Jan

I could've written this myself as I can totally relate to what you are saying. I find it interesting that people are comfortable saying to me "you are too quiet/shy" while on the otherhand most people would find it rude to say to someone "you are too loud/outgoing". Just like no one is going to say to the extrovert "be more anti-social". I'd love to hear how you progress in becoming "more social".

Hi Jakeln
I am 40 years old. I met my bloodfather when I was 10 and we have met every now and then, since. In may 2011 he called me and told me thad he had found his daughter who is born 5 months before me. I had been talking to her by phone for two months when we desited to meet. We met and fell in love. She is married (still) and that didn´t stop us from falling in love. From the first moment on we shared an amazing bond, and every time we get to see each other, we have an ability to enter each other's souls in an instant, as if we have never been apart. The "connection" between us has always contained an element of physical attraction. I am still in love with her and she is still married. We sometimes meet but we have met in coffee shops because she has to meet in public, because we basically can´t stay together alone in the same room because of the attraction that is between us. We had a sexual relationship for a few weeks. i can quote you: "First and foremost, we are truly soul mates and we share an acceptance of each other, that neither of us have ever experienced anywhere else. Our physical relationship is not our primary attraction, but flows from the amazing intimacy we share emotionally". So we still meet, and she is trying hard since we stopped the romantic relationship to act like she think she is suposed to be acting. A few people know about this for example our father who took some time to accept the fact that we fell in love, he is ok now. Our brother, my mother, her husband, my friend, her friend and few more. I know this is love, true love.
I hope she will devorce him because I know she is not happy with him and also because I know that we are soulmates with deepest affection for one another.
Best wishes for you all.
EkHeart

Hi. My aunt has the EXACT same thing. She is seeing a psych, and she has gotten better. Go to see a psych, and they can help you. If I remember, I will ask her what she is on for it next time I see her.

If I remember, she is on wellbutrin, SSRIs, a lot of smaller enzyme things, and something that inhibits NGF (I don't know if it is local to the skin). I don't think they are all for the skin thing, she has other stuff too, so your doctor may be able to just give you a few medicines that don't even have any real side-effects.

The point is that it is possible to fix. You should go to a GP doctor first, and ask about it. They may be able to treat you. If not, ask for a psych.

She has scars all over her from when she used to pick for 40 years. She started seeing a good psych, and now she doesn't even do it at all.

I don’t know if you have a disorder or not but the most similar thing I am aware of is dermatillomania. You can search the site for that and also “skin picking.” There are some posts that mention both of these, but they don’t seem to be in any one particular forum. Perhaps going to a dermatologist may be a good idea too so there would be less acne to pick at. Take care.