My mother and father...
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I have goals; set forth many years ago when I started studying success based thinking concepts and materials.
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The 2 area of interest for expansion are relationships and Activities... I've done fairly well so far working with the universe to expand on these concepts; At least for the first round of this fight! This is an inside job; Ive been emotionally spiritually psychologically disabled and this has effected me physically in the sense of being in freeze mode and dissociated from reality all the time.. Ive dreamed of things but cant leave my room; Kind of thing; not in reality... So most of the work is pre developmental years. not complaining; Im re learning or learning for the first time; basics; and my attitude about it is great! And that is a hell of alot better then its ever been.
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The goals remain the same. Relationships and Activities in the modern era of 2022...
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Ive been able; with Gods help to pair down the major problems of abandonment and neglect; to bring them to their honest core level of engagement; Where did it all start; My parents....
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Thus; the next round will be about my parents...
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dysfunction in relationships and activities has created walls between what I want and what i want to go after... The universe first; must make me a new person if Im going to have a new life; and the first major issue to over come is any dysfunction from the past concerning relationships and activities...
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And thus; Lets get started;
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MOTHER AND FATHER:
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They used me up to age 0-9; THen dumped me. I had no idea it was coming; I did not know what they were... They planned it that way... I went into shock I never came out of.
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So; The goal, activities and relationships; new ones or expanding on whats been discovered or created or worked on so far.
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I have a horrible time taking anything outside and being part of reality.
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Today; I work with the universe GOd on all things...
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Ive just mellowed down an acquaintance experience that floored me in my youth.. I was used again. However, it matters not anymore... Now; New relationships... Thats what I will be asking God for...
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Its all about God right now; and meditation and Goal setting...
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Im scared; the outside world scares me... Ill work with God on more connections to the outside world. Ive not been able to protect myself out there. Ive had no backup; no family; Nothing for most of my life if not all of it... So; Ill pray for those things as well.
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My mother and father helped to destroy me completely; I am now helping me self with Gods help to be able to get back and learn how to live...
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I have a nice clean apartment right now. Its organized; been that way for about a year 1/2? I have hobbies; very good strong hobbies that are good for my development. safe!
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Relationships; Id have to meet new people. When Im ready; Ill work with God on this...
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I have talents; haven't a clue seeing anything in my brain as to an interest to share it with anyone in the outside world; and I wouldn't know where. God will help me with these directions; my mind is not filled with anything in the present that works; its been dissociated from realty for a long time.
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