I am so lost and tired of this. I used to pull my hair in large amounts when I was a kid my mom always told me. She said she would find hair balls under my bed and in my room. That was when my nana died and I was five years old when it all started. My mom told me I only did it for a year or two more after her mom died. Little does she know I have been hiding my hair pulling from her for a long time. The weird thing about Trichotillomania for me is that it will go away for months or even years ! Then it comes back. I mostly pull my eyebrows, and eye lashes sometimes. But now I have been pulling hair on my head like the little baby hairs. Well all the baby hairs are gone so I just keep going up and pulling longer hair. I'm in college, and I noticed I do it when I'm sitting in class or in bed. But I'm not sad or nervous or anything. I don't notice I do it to much until I look down and I see a wad of hair on my lap. I do it in public too which is humiliating but even though it is I still won't stop. It's becoming noticeable on my head and I have to put makeup on my eyebrows to hide the bald spots in them. I don't know what to do. I pull it out then I feel good then I rub the roots across my lips then I look at it and feel terrible and guilty. Then I throw it away and get rid of that guiltiness by pulling more ... I need help I'm in college , and I can't afford being made fu of .please help I don't know why to do!