Don't you ever wish that people will leave you alone if you're different and not the same like everyone else? I don't like talking to people. Sharing my feelings with you is making my head hurt. When people get to know me they think I'm weird. I'm what people call anti-social. I don't want people to talk to me. My mom thinks I just want attention but actually it's the opposite.

I'm different.

I'm black, I listen to hardcore rock, heavy metal, dubstep, folk, and everything except hip-hop which is a problem. I'm judged. A lot. I hate when people ask me who's my favorite rapper or what's my favorite song. I hate being judged for listening to music. I hate being judged for dressing differently and not girly like every other girl. I love being alone. I love listening to Avenged Sevenfold without someone looking at me like I'm stupid. I love listening to Guns N' Roses without someone telling me to turn it down. I cry because I'm judged by everyone including the people I love. I cry because I feel that I'm the only one. The only person that seems to like rock. Why do I have to go through all this pain just for being myself?

People think it's funny and they make fun of the music I listen to. Saying it's stupid and whoever listens to it is an idiot. My mom called me stupid, I really don't need more people to. I feel embarassed. I hide. I don't do extra stuff like sports or clubs. I don't like being around people. I fake a smile but it just doesn't work for me anymore. I've been called emo, goth, and everything else. I'm sorry I can't laugh along with you when you're hurting people's feelings. I'm sorry for not being perfect or pretty. If I could change my body I would. I'm sorry but I can't please everyone. My friends don't know my pain. I trusted only one friend. I told her. Now she's mad at me for ignoring her calls. I'm scared that I won't talk on the phone and she'll get bored and never talk to me again. Ever since I moved she's been my only real friend.

I wish someone would help me...

I don't know what to do...