Earlier I had an odd experience. I was lying in bed with Lucy, they're usually always out and dominant. They started thinking that they were just crazy and making everything up and started trying to push everything away, for the first time in a very long time, something I wasn't sure could happen, they stopped being out. They were inside fighting and kicking and biting while others held them back.

Now it is me. I am someone who is also there, I think, most of the time. Maybe the original. Pretty sure most always co-hosting with Lucy. I've chosen the name Michael. Lucy is still upset. I very concerned but I'm not afraid.