I write this in order to not forget what I was thinking at this hour.

I think I might have DID. I always thought so that I wasn't really alone.
Diagnoses at the moment:
-Asperger's
-Schizoaffective
-Paranoid
-OCD
-Major Depression
-Possible OCPD

I hear voices. But they don't understand what I'm saying. I can't express myself well to them with spoken words. My written words aren't trusted either. I feel like I'm two or more faces of a coin. I can snap so fast and come back to 0 in just a second. I don't understand it at all, and my therapist just says it's "part of the bipolar".
I don't go through phases, I just switch back and forth anger and numb and joy and numb all the time like it's a totally different being.
My moral codes change so much, it's hard to keep track. I just want to know who I am.
The way I write also changes. If I use contractions or if I use formalities.

I don't know what to do. I forget what I supposedly told people, but that's just "the anxiety", that's just the "depression". I am not depressed, I say. I really am not, at the moment. That's another thing, I swing moods like batter.