well, how to get through times like this hey? done it enough times before to know I'll get through again. Just really disappointed my brain has malfunctioned two weeks out of it's last 3 month bender. Can't sustain my living environment much longer so, considering putting my stuff in storage and going backpacking - it's a much cheaper lifestyle than staying put without a flatmate. Really loathed to let this place go though as I really love it, and if I am honest with myself I don't have the interest in travelling atm. So backpacking just sits there as a last resort I s'pose. I'm feeling worried about the impact of mental illness on my life. As hard as I try to work with it, there ares still so many needs I am unable to fill just because I am too sick. So I try to break it down to right now, breathing and body sensations, and what I can see, hear, feel, smell and taste. Total absorption in the present moment. I might distract myself with some telly. Try to do some housework. But first, I'll lay on the couch in the sun and meditate. I might even do a positive imagery meditation, for hopefulness. Visualise myself well and happy, completely submerged in participating in life the way I would want to if I were well. And then I will have to do a meditation for acceptance of exactly where I am in life I spose lol.