Fiji was meant to be a good experience. The preparation has turned into a nightmare. Some of it my fault.

I'm to the point where I'm wondering whether it is worth it. It has been nothing but an infuriating exercise trying to get the cruise booked. I am in "throw up my hands" mode now.

I should feel lucky about having the capacity to go on a cruise to Fiji but it just seems to be a window to be seriously jerked around by the travel industry. I'm going for a walk to cool off.

So should I go? Is this just a week full of crap trying to book or is it just an indicator not to bother spending $4K on a nightmare.

I really feel like I'm about to blow a gasket. I haven't been managing life very well lately.