My pdoc thinks I am wrong to ask my male friend to take me to hospital. My occupational therapist thinks I wasn't.

I enjoyed a three day shagathon with the same male friend, who I don't know that well. Views on that would be even more diverse.

Because I haven't had a flatmate for 3 months, I have accepted a guy to stay for a week. The male friend has tried to get all involved in the process... and I'm like "back off". He's like "yeah, I care and I'm protective. My bad".

I get all BPD when he doesn't give me attention and then I need to tell him to back off when he does, coz it is more than what is appropriate. It would be too much even if we were in a relationship. The jury is out whether his heart is in the right place, and even if it is, my boundaries are my boundaries and he needs to respect them.

He hasn't had a relationship for a long while and I've only just got out of one. I'm not going to expose any of his vulnerabilities but I'm not going to absorb his issues either.

It's so interesting getting the balance between undercooking and overcooking right.

Well, I'm not isolating myself, and yes I am struggling with how to screen people and negotiate new relationships. I feel like such a babe in the woods. I feel that I am naive... and I'm working on it the best I can.

As my pdoc puts it "It's about learning how to not feeling comfy with psychopaths"

Change takes time, and there will be mistakes along the way, but I will do my utmost best!!!