After a week and a half of normal mood, I was on the brink of my sense of self changing... but the reliable old depression is back, reinforcing my identity as a head case Gee that was a close call! lol

I think I am fighting the flu on top of my body still trying to catch up from the haemorrhaging. Apart from that I'm highly overdue to get depressed again! 9 days of normal mood was soooooooooo amazing!!!

Yesterday was a big day with medical tests and school enrollment interviews with the boy. I was exhausted by 3pm and had a 2hr sleep!

I'm finding lots of little things to put in the new depression bubble I'm in... it's like collecting shells from the beach. I see one and think "yeah, I'll hold onto this bad idea and really run with it in my head for a while, until I have crazy urges and realise what I am doing and then start the process of putting the 'shell back on the sand'".

It's hard to keep busy when so sick from physical and mental ilnesses atm, but busyness is what will help me "walk along the beach, without picking up the 'shells of bad thoughts'".

Distraction, distraction, distraction for this little black duck today

Sweetie,
I'm sorry you're in an icky place atm. I think your body's been through a lot already and if you throw the flu on top of that, hell, it'd get even the best person feeling like poo.

Crossing my fingers that you feel better soon!!!

((((Hugs))))
-Koshka

Thanks Kosh