I'm afraid it's all Will start over again... I'm starting to have my scariest nightmares again... I'm being kidnapped. That people hurt me sexually... that people want to kill me. That others want to sell me, that I am going to beat people up. But especially that I cut myself to pieces, there is always someone there who says I understand. It's no big deal and so on...

This is now happening again for a couple of nights... I really worry about that beacaus I lost myself before after those dreams. I am so incredibly
Tired... I'm really fighting with myself and my brain again...

The only thing in my head is that I want to hurt myself.. I am completely stuck in it again... the only thing I can do is cry...

I'm so sick of it! I really need help... this goes completely wrong... And I dont no hoe this ends..
Monday my P calls again.

Try to stay safe. Post in the Cutting and Self Injury forum. We have a How Are You Feeling thread, and a Crisis thread.

I tryed but my message didn't came true I guess.. Idk why..

I've seen and approved your post to the Cutting forum, which was still in the queue. New forum posts are moderated 100% for a time, for new users, to discourage spamming. Blog posts are moderated 100%, all the time, for all users. Your blogs will always require a moderator to approve them. Forum posts, after a while, will go thru with no delay, once you're an established member in good standing.

[quote="Snaga"]I've seen and approved your post to the Cutting forum, which was still in the queue. New forum posts are moderated 100% for a time, for new users, to discourage spamming. Blog posts are moderated 100%, all the time, for all users. Your blogs will always require a moderator to approve them. Forum posts, after a while, will go thru with no delay, once you're an established member in good standing.[/quote]

Thanks for the explentation