Well, I've been working on my class work like a mad woman today. Wrote a term paper in two hours, posted discussion board postings, worked on some other class stuff... pretty productive. For some reason I re-look at one of my teachers' course instructions and find out I need to be posting on the discussion boards by Wednesdays. Had to go back through all my posts and figure out which ones I busted the timeline on. Only one...thank goodness. But this little, very minor bobble sent me into this mental mudslide. This week's topics have been challenging and I'm feeling down.

Feel stupid, actually. Wonder what the hell I am doing wanting to be a Psychologist or diagnostician. Feel completely inadequate. Everyone tells me I am so smart, but do they REALLY realize how much time and effort I have to put into learning???? I feel so EFFIN stupid... like I'm a dumba$$ masquerading as a potentially intelligent person.

Know I'm being completely silly here. It hit me about 5 minutes ago that I'm about 4 days away from my "monthly gift." For god's sake... why the HELL do I have to endure this hormonally-induced bash-fest every damn month? Why do I have to get about an hour into hating myself, doubting myself and doubting everything before I realize it is hormones and then say "oh, yeah... here it comes."

Can someone please rip out my ovaries already? They've already proven to be the second most useless organs in my body... my appendix being the other. I'm childless, in my 40's and don't need these malfunctional useless organs in my body to eff with me every damn month.

Sigh.

Sorry for the pointless, down-beat rant. Just one of those days. One of those days that I have to endure every single month.

Shake out of it, Koshka!

Hi Koshka,

Your less frequent blogging has had me checking less... only saw this now. I'm too tired to write anything intelligent but will come back to it - have a brilliant day sweetheart!!!!

Gee, not tired, I'm still can't must anything int

Not tired now, but still can't muster up anything intelligent. i'm screwed lol

LOL... LW, you just make me smile!!! Welcome to the world of my defunct brain..lol