I don't understand why did I deserve to develop this kind of condition. It's like a bad luck struck me. I'm so done with psychologists that they dare to dismiss somebody's suffering. How have they not noticed this pattern? First, bullying, now - OCD. Life's a joke, honestly.

Moving on to the bullying part, I've experienced since 5th grade. Worst thing a person could experience. People would tease me, use me, make fun of me, call me names. And the worst part, is that three people (two from my class) physically abused somebody. I thought at 9th grade things would get better, but it didn't. I was bullied last year. I started to become self-conscious of my behavior and my surroundings. Why did I deserve this s**t? I promise that one day when they come to me and say something nasty to my face, I'll make sure that things won't be so pretty. If I was taller, I would beat the living s**t out of them. F**k those people. They don't exist, but they are more like made up images of somebody's misery. Bad people are like those anti-humans. They have no place in this world. World has already been a hell because of them.

And for the OCD part, I haven't been myself for as long as I could remember. My false feelings are weak, but they haven't disappeared. And I'm frustrated that it's not going away. I know that I should be patient and wait for it to slowly disappear, but I can't. I want to be in peace without overthinking, constantly feeling anxious and depressed. Save me from this mind cancer. I swear, if OCD was a person, I would teach them a valuable lesson. And if they ever tried to constantly mess with me, the last thing they would ever see is my face.