Video I'm listening/watching - http://youtu.be/0rj6kyMO2wk

The music describes my current mood - Enigma ft Enya - Age Of Loneniess

Hi.... new here and hoping to meet you guys.

I will be sharing the most intimate things about myself in the hopes of finding answers. I'm dealing with repressed and fragmented memories of my abuse. I feel insane at times and that I must purposely be sabtoging my life, marriage, and future.

I'm terrified but determined to share this with someone... all of it, the ugly, bad, and sick parts of myself. I feel like I am going to burst open but am too scared to even do it with a therapist or close friend. I've managed to share bits and pieces of myself with my husband and a few friends but that's not enough for me.

This feels like a good safe and anoyomous place to do so. I hope I am right and it will not bite me in the ass. For the most part I doubt it would be remotely interesting enough to even worry about this. I'm just a boring self-centered 39 yr old housewife.

Hopefully I will be posting in this blog often before I get too scared and stop altogether. In the meantime I would LOVE for you guys to PM me with similar child sexual abused stories or advice to deal with it as an adult.

Oh pls forgive misspells. I can't find a spell checker here and there will be times I'll rush everything out too fast to care how I spell.