already not a fan of this blog place.....why do I need "approval" to post my thoughts? Who is the great "decider"? Feels dumb having someone read over what you have to say if they've no interest in doing so. If you must include a form of censorship, why not a reactive policy instead?

Yeah I don't have a lot of people in my life to talk to but I still like to say stuff from time to time so I'll type it out so nobody can read it instead of just not hearing it. Folks need options in this fast food world and they need them now. You can see right away that this blog will be catering to the people.

I post on the AVPD forum and as you can see my name here is guysmiley, though I don't think I smile much in real life. I'm a happy enough clam but for some reason my face betrays that lots.
Example: I'm in line at a checkout at some store...it's summer so lets go to the beer store shall we?...so ok, I'm in line at the beer store. I'm watching the interaction between the cashier guy and the smelly guy in front of me. They banter a bit, couple of laughs, then it's my turn. Keep in mind I'm doing my "pleasant fellow" routine, got my "pleasant fellow" face on, say "Hi". Cashier's face changes from jokey to serious, says "this all for you?" WTF??? Apparently my "pleasant fellow" character needs a lot of work!
Maybe it's the extreme nervousness that ###$ it all up and makes my face unable to look pleasant in those situations. I can practice it is the mirror til my face falls off, once it did!, no it didn't.....but I can't bring that mojo with me "in the field".

Oh ya, I'm an old guy. I was born in the mid-60's, started high school in the 70's. I'm Canadian so that means I can skate. I used to play with massive routers an switches for a great corporation until I got sick. Now I am on long-term leave due to my lifelong severe anxiety which finally broke my body at 40 yrs old. Now I try to write to fill the time I should be working. Maybe one day sell something. Enough seriousness, it hurts my head.
Enough blog too. No more blog! I got sidetracked by life there for a minute now I can't get back into blogification mode.
So, out for now.