I am really confused as to what this is but I think it is worth a try, maybe others share this same ordeal.

The problems I think that I am aware of is serious forgetfulness, a crazy about of reasoning with myself including speaking out loud regularly(in private), and somehow I can't seem to stay in the same mood for more than a few hours if that much. I also can't really feel others pain which according to everyone else that isn't normal.


Breaking them down.

Forgetfulness
I tend to loss a lot of my stuff all over the place and I can't recall where I last placed them(short periods of time). I also have a hard time carrying out my intentions. here's an example; I going to take a shower so I go to my room for the towel and as soon as I get in the room either something else will catch my attention and I will have absolutely no idea why I went into my room in the first place. This has happened to me a couple times now. Another way i have forgetfulness will be past relationships and events that has occurred in my life.at best sometimes I can remember that attend these things, here's where i gets weird if you show me a picture, I can probably recall more than you can but that's an extreme case. Of my childhood under the age of 12 I can only remember a few events which i find is very disturbing because I am only 19 also if you asked me what happened a week ago it is extremely hard for me to recall. my parents tell me stories of how i used to lose my items all the time when I was a baby but i usually waved that off as something that children do and then they will grow out of it. I don't really lose as much as i used to. here's another example of short term memory loss that happens to me all the time, i go into the store to purchase something when I go to the cashier and pay for it, i tend to forget my change from the cashier, luckily where I live they are kind enough to call me back. At this point I am in college and I think that I am going to have a very hard time in the work force. My marks aren't the problem I have 85%+ average with the year almost done and I plan on staying there. I don't know what the problem is that would be one of the greatest helps if nothing else.

on the basis of reasoning with myself, i just can't stop thinking. Its always been this way for me, I didn't really see this as much of a problem until people started to ask me " where does your curiosity come from" and "why do you think so much". My answer to them was "is it possible to stop thinking"? wouldn't that mean that your no longer conscious? Anyways I am not a social outcast or anything like that, I live a pretty solitary life though when I am at home. I enjoy my own company but I don't mind the company of others either. I think i have talked myself out of many back choices but I think it registered better when I speak it out loud. I don't really have any "positive" drives in life, I don't quite get it. I don't really get the concept of motivation , sometimes the only think that keeps me going to just thinking alone. I can see how peoples motivations affect them but to acquire motivation to do things seems foreign to me. I don't really see myself as a pessimist either, i don't look at much of the negative things in life nor the positive.

Mood
I am generally a happy person but I have a pretty short fuse, I just don't like non-sense. But after i get all worked up in my head I tend to forget i was even angry in the first place. I know some people can stay happy for the whole day but I don't really dwell on anything good or bad and therefore i tend to end up emotionless at times or bored. the only thing that i really can dwell on is my thoughts and understanding of something that is relatively new to me( I tend to like to find my own understand in things). I am no part of any one good and i don't really keep really close friends either, their more considered to be acquaintances or kind of distant friends in my...

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