1. People chewing loudly esp on things like crisps. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DO THAT? Can you not chew normally instead of smacking your lips together and making us all share in the gastronomic experience you are going through.

2. People cracking their knuckles. For doing this disgusting habit you deserve to get the arthritis that urban myth warns of.

3. People leaving lights on - it is not difficult to turn them off

4. People who talk to me when I dont want to talk. If I am being quiet it is for a reason.

5. People spitting. Seriously - what is this about. Why would I possibly want to see that or even tread in it when you are thoughtful enough to do it onto the pavement.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Many things irritate me - esp when I am a bit high and irritable atm but these are some things that really get my goat. Why is the world so intent on winding me up atm.

Hugs

Cracked

I can be really not very nice at times and I feel awful about it. Plus my head wont stop racing and I am hearing things. My meds have been fiddled with so hopefully things will settle shortly but it does not change much. I need to have a good think about things and figure out where I am going wrong with my behaviour esp when my mood is off as it is far from ideal. This blog is mainly a reminder to myself of how I feel atm and how it is important for me to think about this after I have had a bit of a sleep and am more refreshed in the morning.

Hugs to all

Cracked

I am watching An Idiot Abroad 2 and they are making Karl Pilkington do things off a bucket list. So I was thinking what would be on my bucket list and have narrowed it down to 10 things I would like to do. I have been lucky enough to do a lot in my life any how but these are some more things I would like to achieve.

1. Travel round Namibia taking photos on an overland truck
2. Live in Cape Town and Toronto
3. Own a cottage in cottage country, Ontario and a little boat
4. Sail round the UK
5. Visit South America
6. Work for an overland company as a tour guide in Africa
7. Win the lottery and take my family on holiday
8. Visit the West Indies
9. Work for Medicin Sans Frontiers
10. Learn to fly a plane and be a jumbo jet pilot

Hugs to all

Cracked

Well I had a fun day yesterday. The Jubilee Street party I have been helping plan finally happened after a year of organising. It was fab! masq and I started the day having to string zillions of balloons that were filling my house together as the little kids I had been promised as slaves never showed up

Still we got it done.

It was really really really lovely to get everyone together. I have lived here for years and I never knew (with the exception of one person ) how nice everyone is. I thought my nextdoor neighbour was not very nice but she and her partner are absolutely lovely, as are her kids - it was a real eyeopener.

A good friend of mine did a set of live music and he went down really well - plus another friend from choir who has a proper trained opera voice led us all in things like Jerusalem and Land Of Hope And Glory. It was totally bizarre only in Britain behaviour but it was good. masq likened it to a Monty Python sketch

I was the photographer and spent a large portion of my day asking ppl if I could take their pic and telling them it was going on FB and was that OK. Everyone was cool with it tho so that is good. Once I had deleted the rubbish pics there were still nearly 300

Anyhow if you are thinking of whether or not to talk to your neighbours give it ago as they may well be a nice bunch

Hugs all

Cracked

Things are busy atm. I have loads on with both music and church and also some social stuff too. Tonight I have a meeting about Messy Church - a kids' thing held at church twice a term. Tomorrow I have Mind - i am doing music there. I just hope and pray the guy who raped me will not be there. I saw someone who knows him the other day and I am worried it might be a sign. He shouldnt be but I have a plan about what to do in case he is - walk out and tell someone there.

Tom evening I have a social event I am really nervous about for a number of reasons as it is something new for me and also I get shy around new people. But I am meeting someone there so I am going to see how it goes and be brave - hopefully it will go OK.

Saturday I must tidy as I have ppl coming over - including masq I also havea festival and vintage fair to go to on Saturday with a friend.

Sunday I have church and then a Jubilee Picnic then dinner with my Granny.

Monday is pumping up balloons day for the street party I have been helping organise - apparently I am going to have loads of kids come help - tho we shall see. And masq is going to be roped into helping too

Tuesday is street party day Hopefully will be a lot of fun and we will see how it goes. I hope it brings the street together. A friend is doing a set so that will be good and I am taking the pictures of the day so I hope I do a good job.

So busy busy busy atm. Think of me and that I manage to do OK with all this thank you.

HUge hugs

Cracked