Hello,

I am new of course, I recently came to terms about my personality disorder, and am here to get support because well I have none.

I find myself ever since I was a little girl getting spouts of rage, towards everyone. Mainly because of my trust issues but who doesnt have these trust issues?

I grew up with little to no support system and no I am not blaming it on that, I don't blame my circumstances on anyone. Well I don't right now.

Of course the whole relationship issues come to question, I stay away from my sibling because I do not want them hurt. But they do get upset about it often. Relationships with men start out great, then I start to question, if they are weak, then well I keep doing it, if they are strong, then I become weak.

I tend to notice the whole mirroring as well. I do not do it on purpose, and I do not do it often, I like to argue, its good to argue right?

My main issue is the whole emptiness feeling that I get. I live alone and have been living on my own for about seven years, ever since I was sixteen. I go to school, I took a few years off to work beforehand so I am very well goal oriented. I mainly keep my goals because I have nothing else to do or to live for. I try not to feel sorry for myself but it comes a thought in my head sometimes.

I believe that I am an intelligent individual. but at times people may seem to prove me wrong. I am very paranoid and love talking about myself. but have recently learned that it is not so tactful to do so.

Just confused is all. If anyone has any suggestions I am open to them.