I'm strongly attracted to girls as young as 2 or 3, not exclusively but primarily. I'm able to facade a normal life and I've been doing so successfully for a few years now. Nobody I know has a clue. I'd never touch a child because of obvious repercussions both legal and family orientated. On the other hand, I don't want to either because I know it's wrong. It would destroy any hope of leading a normal life again. I'm 19 years old and for the past 7 or 8 years I've found that as my age has increased my desired sexual partners ages have decreased. I used to think it was normal to have these feelings at 13/14 but now I'm almost 20 I know there's something very wrong. In recent years I've not only had these feelings but I've also been developing attractions to rape, beastality and other very violent things. I'm perfectly normal on the outside but what people see and speak to every day is somebody very different from me. I've got Asperger's syndrome and several other dysfunctions but I've never been to a doctor about what I'm posting now in fear of them going to the authorities. I don't believe in doctor-patient confidentiality in the slightest. If my family found out who I really am I'd never see them again and that terrifies me because I can't help how I feel any more than a person can help their gender or the colour of their skin. The important thing is that I've never acted on it and I never will but I suppose one can only suppress something so much. I need to speak to people my age who know what I'm going through. My ex girlfriend almost caught me out before our relationship ended for a completely separate reason and it's put the fear of god in to me. What if she would have found out? I need help and I want to help others, too.