Getting sick of my symptoms being disregarded. Who in their right mind thinks it's alright to say "that's stupid" when you tell them how you're feeling or what you're going through? I understand some people don't have the complete ability to comprehend some of the loss of control that comes with have severe anxiety, but that doesn't give them the right to disregard something I'm feeling, correct? I tend not to argue with this person, as he happens to be my significant other and don't feel like it's necessary to start an argument.

We have a good relationship that is only rocky when my anxiety is involved. I easily forgave him when he said I would have ended up alone if he wouldn't have came along not because I believed it but because he admitted he shouldn't have said it. But something in my gut warned me it was the start of something greater. I know he experienced a depressive period in his life, which I sympathize with since take it day by day with my depression. He pushed himself through it and of course the bad situations that were pretty much causing the depression removed themselves. What he doesn't seem to get is that I've been dealing with chronic depression for a little over three years because of an anxiety disorder I've been dealing with for 13. Obviously, if I could have pushed myself through it like him, if my anxiety could also move out like his situations did, I would have been cured by now.

For him to constantly remind me I have to deal with people at some point in my life only enrages me. Of course I do! I'm on Earth! It's exhausting and painful to confront your greatest fear every day and not have anyone to give recognition to the the fact that you have managed to do so. I want to get a job I can keep, I want to be able to walk out the front door comfortably, I want to be able to ask for help when I need it but it takes work and being beat down all the time doesn't help. My advice to myself is the same as my advice to others: get out while you can.

Mental illnesses aren't accepted, or believed, by everyone. I guess I've learned you can't convince people that you have a problem when they can't experience the problem on their own terms and I should probably stop trying. Honestly, I'd rather end up alone than have people constantly disregarding who I am.