Some time has passed and I'm further from the nightmare I once felt consumed me, all my vital signs are positive. Obesity, vision loss, memory loss, confusion, diabetes, high this low that - they're all gone.
Yesterday I ran 12 km to get my weeks supply of milk from a local farmer, the journey back was strangely enjoyable even with a small back pack and 6 litres of milk. The fat in the milk had churned to whipped cream and tasted great by itself and in a milk shake, also, the yogurt was a little thicker without so much fat.
Diet wise, through measuring all the minerals and vitamins I can confirm that it's allot of work to understand what nutrition is and the payoff is piece of mind that the food supply is both nourishing and complete.
Relationships are going well, concentration levels are good, memory recall has returned and I'll be starting a part time job next week so all in all things are improved.
The only longer term study I am aware of comparing medicated to unmedicated outcomes confirms that following 2 1/2 years there's not much difference between the two groups, however, following that period the group off medication do much better.
For myself I am not waiting 2 1/2 years.

I wouldn't advise anyone to stop failing until they succeed.

I meet with my psychiatrist today and I have a feeling of happiness and relief.
My GP Doctor had discussed with him my plan to transition to Micronutrients and that helped.
Instead of confronting the psychiatrist with the 'evils and lies' in his profession or being confronted by the psychiatrist on alternative treatments.... we where able to talk about common ground we both shared - like there being only a handful of studies longer than 3 years on pills, treatment centre's which claim to have great results with schizophrenic patients (like Finland) do things differently, and, while Micronutrients offer promising hope of recovery that they are part of a treatment plan and not the whole treatment plan.
The result is I have a discharge from the Mental Health Services and can work with my GP towards better health.
Yeah...
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Don't get me wrong, I may be off drugs but I'm far from being well again. It's been three months and feelings of depression and suicide haunted me for a long time to a point much worse that I had ever felt before.
There is an effect termed spellbinding (psychologists have another word which sounds more professional that describes the same effect). Spellbinding describes the effect when underlying symptoms reappear often stronger than prior too and the patient has stopped pills.
The spellbinding effect is that stopping medication can cause severe physical medical withdraw and the symptoms include negative thinking with all the typical mania associated with schizophrenic behaviour.
Time has passed and the negative thinking is gone, I am back positively optimistic in where I am going, just those feelings have been replaced with poor sleep, blurred vision, lack of concentration, lose of memory. These feelings leave me feeling dizzy with concern that I don't want to descend backwards I am better than this.
I'm doing allot to help myself - walking, reading, writing, eating, little things like saying hi to strangers and smiling without invading their private space, little things make a positive difference.
I'm also doing things which make life more difficult mainly smoking. It really has a bad effect on me so this week I have spent all my money to no longer have the means of purchase.
Monday is also a big day for me as I meet the psychiatrist. I've been escalating anxiety and apprehension about the meeting since the appointment was made.
One of the symptom's of schizophrenia is that patients claim that they don't have schizophrenia and if anybody believes that then obviously they're F*c5ed, the problem is how do I convince the psychiatrist who seems an unreasonable person?
I do how-ever have a plan for the meeting which I'm formulating in my mind something which might turn it around in my favour by drawing attention to the psychiatrists own health concerns.
What I think will happen in the meeting is the psychiatrist will get angry and start shouting me down for having discussed going off medication and alternative treatment with my GP Doctor. When he pauses to catch his breath I plan to say something like 'that's not fear? When I asked you about alternatives last time you got angry and shouted me down, this time you have more colour in your checks and nose so your anxiety or high blood pressure could be getting worse. I'm not going anywhere I'm happy to come back next week when you're feeling better and can talk rationally about health'.
In my bag I'll have some information with studies that show alternatives with positive patient outcomes, if the psychiatrist calm's down we should be able to have a conversation from there.
On the other hand if the doctor insists on being uncooperative I'll turn my attention to my key health worker, he has just come back from three month's supporting his 13 daughter who is recovering from a serious back injury.
I'll ask him his opinion on the psychiatrist's prognosis? After he's agreed with psychiatrist, I'll ask him - 'if you find your own daughter reading the pill bottle's your giving her will you take them away and tell her bottle's aren't for reading just swallow the pills? She's going to be at home on the internet allot are you going to spy on websites she reads to keep her safe from groups of people who find different ways to cope with stress?' Are you going to take her computer away?
'It's not unreasonable for patients to do there own research and draw their own conclusions'.
Then I'll turn back to the psychiatrist and explain why it's important to him and his family to let people like me drop out of the system to create a safe environment on our own terms.
And now to conclude that overthinking is a definite sign that someone has schizophrenia:-)

Hi all, like many of us, after many years off medication I got trapped on a compulsory treatment order. I'm of the compulsory treatment order now and problem is if the psychiatrist's suspects I'm not voluntarily taking pills he'll likely put me back on injections for no reason. It seems obvious for someone like me to be judged off medication because I loose weight and look and sound healthy again once the drugs are out of the system.
I'm trying to stay fat but my body simply wants to be slim.
Is there anyone who is out and off drugs with some advice?