Since I started taking the 150mg of Seroquel in addition to the lithium, I find that I am sleeping a good amount except for the days when I have to start at 6am the next morning., even if I started at 6am that day, I can't sleep without the aid of Valium, but if I take that then I have a massive sleep hangover the next morning where I can't wake up properly and I feel groggy for about 3 hours after waking up.

Struggling with the end of the manic episode, I feel like I want to postpone it so it never ends. I know that this is only because I feel invincible because of the mania. But I lived in the depression for as long as I can remember, why couldn't I love in the mania for a little while longer.

I remember all the times I was depressed when I was younger, it seems to me that I lived in the depression for 20 years and only had brief moments of mania, obviously I see only the bad. I still welcome the depression like an old friend, it has been there for me when everyone else has failed. I am a pessimist at heart and expect that everyone will fail eventually. Not the best way to make friends or hold on to friendships. But I get through it the best that I can.

Well better try and get some sleep.

Landor