Love is something I don't understand. When someone rejects me I keep fighting for their love, because I want them to love me. But they never do. No one ever loves me. They never see me as a person. I guess that's the problem, isn't it? I can't force someone to want to be with me, that would be cruel and wrong. But I don't see why no one ever wants to take a chance with me. They always give me stupid reasons "You're too skinny" "Too childish" "Too smart" "You have curly hair" "You are too gay" "Not gay enough" "I don't like Olive skin" "Too sophisticated" "You love me too much" "You care too much" "You're a boy" "Your hair is too short". The worse is they all say they liked me until they decided to not see me as a person anymore, too see only the outside. Does it matter if you had fun dating someone and feelings started arising but you decided you wanted to see them as a boy, and since they are a boy you won't date someone of the same sex. Why are people like this?

No matter how hard I try,
I just can't seem to find the light.

-Pepper