Let's see if I can keep this up...

It's now 6am and I haven't slept, again. This night was hell. Around 22pm I started feeling a bit energetic, couldn't sit still, was pacing around the room, but ok.
At 2am, I apparently thought it would be a GREAT idea to get in touch with everyone on facebook! Some people that I haven't talked in more than a year, but I still care about a lot. Now I regret it, I usually put a lot of pressure on myself, but I bet I looked ridiculous and once again people will think I'm weird, feeling "happy" all of a sudden. Or worst, they'll be mad, because I had a breakdown last year for months and distanced myself from everyone and never had the guts to go after most of them. I just hate when people ask me if I'm (finally) better then... I'm never okay, after all.

I still gotta write in two days a bit of my history and symptoms for my new pdoc so he can try to help me, but I can't. Just can't. My mind is too wired these days and I can't focus.
I'll try to go to bed before 7am... and wake up to read all the facebook replies.