So i have been away for the last 6 and a 1/2 monthsish and now i am back!

It has been some of the toughest moments of my life but also the most worthwhile in investing in myself and learning to love who i am. It has been a hard road but i am now greatful for the life i have. This time last year i was determined that i wouldn't live i was on self destruct and didn't care who i was hurting in the process. This year i am overwhelmed by how much has changed by how excited i am for my future and all the things i want to do in my life.

I owe so much to so many people not only here but irl. I have been shown so much love and support and care even when i pushed people away they still supported and encouraged. I'm so so so blessed!

I'm in the process of sorting out going back to work hopefully in the new year. I have to wait and see what vacancies are available as they don't want me to return to where my job is currently being held.

I can now honestly say that i am happy and have a genuine smile upon my face.

Hope you all have a wonderful christmas

This is wonderful to read. Such hard work and I'm glad it's coming together for you. Have a lovely Happy Christmas!

Thanks ada i had a wonderful christmas and loving being at home with friends and family hope you are well and had a good christmas

Yes, thank you. I loved being completely on my own with no-one around. Not at all as sad as it seems.