im tired of the consent fight with anxiety i have at the moment - i want to cut i dont know how else to deal with it - the doctors here are no help and the nurses cant do anything - all i get from the doctors is you are dealing with it well - well i hate to tell you im not it just looks that way to you - they see you 1 a week more and you are lucky - i just want to give in and quit - i cant take this life anymore - im sick of pretending im ok when im not - to them i look in control and calm in my head is a different story - all the pain and anxiety is too much - stop, shut up already - i want it to end

I'm sorry about your constant fights with anxiety. It IS damn hard. *hugs*