He didn’t text today!!!!!! I wanted to see him
I drank and threw up even tho I didn’t drink that much, cos I don’t want parents to notice missing alcohol. n I wanted to snuggy but yeah I guess he doesn’t like me THAT much. I’m so horny and addicted to old men, it feels so much better than doing it by myself

I know I need to stop but I feel so much better than 2wks ago when I had to go to the hospital. So I feel like it’s okay… like being bad is better than being suicidal… drinking does make me depressed after tho… hmm