i dont think i have IED now i think it is a learned behaviour, i went to stay with my parents for a couple of days and just watching them made me realise i probably grew up thinking my behaviour was normal because both of them arnt necessarily angry but they raise there voices at the smallest things and get kinda hyped up over nothing, so if ive been brought up with them doing that all the time ive kinda learned it and believe its normal, im feeling kinda happy that i dont have IED and now i think i know what causes my anger so now i just have to try be more aware and in control and think theres no need to get angry at this insignificant thing, which probably will be hard as i dont think i think much i just do like ill just flip in a second, im gonna try work on it though, and remember in the other post i mentioned going off on one cos the towel didnt dry me and made my skin feel horrible, well twice ive used the same towel, the first time i could feel my self getting hot and i was pissed off but kept going and i didnt loose it. the second time which was last night i didnt feel hot or pissed but just kept talking to myself silly things like come on you need to get dry it will dry you etc. i did use alot of talc as i didnt feel i was dry but i didnt end up chucking it all the the bathroom and making a mess.
so overall i think i have made an improvement, ive just gotta remember to talk to myself and try calm down before i explode