""It funny how things seem to feel like they will be easier the next time a situation comes up when you hear that you got that support backing you to work hard at not reacting. thank u moomin.xxx""



Well this was a load of $#%^ that i said....so pissed off with myself...literally an hour after i wrote this...guess what happened???? rage did!....the person i share my house with said one thing to me that was was said in not a nice tone...but its like until she could see that what she said was wrong (which it was) i just couldnt drop it...it like i have to be understood...i was keeping calm then all of a sudden...BANG!! i was mad!!...my head was hot, my cheeks went red, i was shaking with anger...i think i was very close to putting my arm threw a glass door in anger...or even my head...i must have still had control as after my rage (or in the middle of it) i slammed the door instead and then took myself off to my room to calm down...then, 10 mins after she says she knows she caused all that...well too late when ive kicked off like a fcking idiot again....i couldnt talk to her them coz i would have got so mad again....i always manage to do this...something that originally not me ends up looking like me coz of the way i react....IDIOT IDIOT IDIOT.....

Right, time to try again.x