How's Your Mood Today?

Not sleeping either. Restless, frustrated and starting to get really pissed off at myself and the world.

Today went well.. I'm in a bit of an ok mood tonight. Went to the Dr. got prescribed Lithium, I'm hoping it helps.. I'm gonna start 300MG and in a week be up to 600MG. Let's see how it does.. Hope folks are hanging in there around here...

Take care.

My mood has been mostly normal and stable with some low and high moments, but lately I've been dissociating a lot in the sense I just stare into space, or sometimes I don't move, it was pretty severe at a party last weekend, it was so hard to focus on the people and all that was going on while I was just staring into space and I had to work on coming out of that state whenever someone was talking to me. I relate this to my dissociative disorder though. Well I started yoga yesterday and liked it so I'll see how it goes. At least I could relax for a while.

In the middle of a week and a half long euphoric hypomanic rush that doesn't seem to be letting up or even slowing down even now.

This is gonna be a bitch to come down from.

I went to a massive street party, ended up going home with some guy, who decided to declare he's in love with me just as I was leaving, a couple of hours ago.

... So now I'm confused and messed up, because he's actually nice and stuff, and having a boyfriend would be nice, but I'm a total monster and it would be evil of me to try to have a relationship with him.

.. Oh great.. Just as I was about to hit submit, I got a txt from him to please come to his Bday tomorrow.

... I think not.

CrackedGirl » Mon May 26, 2014 10:25 am
I am not great atm - I think I have gone from high to mixed and have even had self harm on the brain a bit. I wont but it is not nice to think about

Yeah these pesky thoughts buzz around like annoying mosquitoes from time to time and are very distracting.
I am in a level mood but have several things to be stressed about that keeps trying to pull me down, I am resisting well and holding up fine, expect for those darn mosquitoes... I am able to bat them back again but they are lurking around the corner ready to taunt me.
Fortunately I have plenty strong right now to keep fending them off but it uses up energy that I would much rather use for important pending projects.

Hope to be completely "mosquito" free soon.

I'm not sleeping, I'm really agitated, pissed off. But right now, I feel reasonably happy. Except my heart is still pounding really hard and I have a headache.

no sleep, anxiety, stress, fear, I just now something is going to be really screwed up today. tic, tic tic.

Found myself a nice 44 y.o. mobile home that I'm seriously thinking about buying. Very affordable and in a quiet neighborhood. It needs a bit of work but it doesn't look like it's falling apart at the seems. I'm not 100% sure she'll approve me for the lot rental but I can pay cash for the MH itself. Only reason she wouldn't approve me is the history I have with the last place I lived. Can't see any other reason... It'll be nice getting out of my parent's house again... I want so much to live my own life.

Think I'm leaning up today.

Im feeling better, but i could just be delusional