What is it like to feel alone? For some reason I don't know

I am broadly a very secluded person. I spent enormous amount of time in my room week after week. All my friends are in a different state and I can't seem to make any friends here in this state since I've been living here. It seems strange that even though my life for so many of these years has been spent in great seclusion I've never felt anything that sounds like what people "loneliness". It sounds painful and depressing but whenever I think about my social situation in life I just never seem to have any of those kinds of feelings.

I've read that if you feel especially connected to others you may not have as of a much of an emotional need to constantly reach out to them daily and I think for me there's a lot of truth to that. I am very spiritual and the connection I feel to the entire human race is a thing of great wonder and beauty. I always say time and again that for me humanity itself is above all things. I am obsessed with our species. We are powerful. We are beautiful. We are majestic. Every time I am with someone it is as if I can feel their soul - their very essence glows on body.

Perhaps it is a gift and perhaps loneliness itself is the real curse of the general public. I am quite good in conversation. Throughout these years I have on occasion been a decisive social butterfly. I am handsome. I am intelligent. I am well liked. I am missed when I am gone. I am articulate. Sometimes I can be the very center of attention. I know how to make just about anyone laugh, some more than others. I am ambitious. I like to think that I am a noble person. So it seems strange in some way that my reclusive lifestyle could so coexist with these characteristics.

So I guess it's really just a matter of my own curiosity - subjectively, I mean, what's it like be lonely?

I think most people are in denial that they aren't lonely. Even people with family, friends, kids, significant other. Most people think going on social media is a substitute for real interaction but it's not. More and more people are glued to their phones all the time. It is really a sad time and I'm glad I mostly grew up before smartphones. Feeling lonely is like you're alone, weird, no friends, hopeless, etc. I guess if you're introverted it might be easier. There's no excuse not to put yourself out there and meet people with similar interests. That is one good thing about the internet is meeting people. There really needs to be a site like Tinder to just meet new friends.