revved up inside?

I have this weird feeling inside me, and on same days it's all consuming. It's really hard to describe but I'll do my best. It's like there's an engine inside revving in neutral constantly.... energy and motion but stuck and not going anywhere. Or an energy wave oscillating far too quickly for me to be comfortable. I imagine my insides, or maybe my soul even, darting through extra dimensions that they normally don't exist inside. Way too fast. Like I'm quickly shifting in and out of our universe. All this internal stuck energy makes me feel like I'm going to explode.

As far as my thoughts go they feel clipped and I can't focus or concentrate on anything. I don't know that they're going too fast... it seems that ALL of me is going too fast. I really can't tolerate the experience and have taken time off of work recently.

I know that "soul darting through extra dimensions" is not in the DSM. But does anyone feel this revved feeling? It seems to come with manic or maybe even mixed states for me (I don't have much experience feeling mixed). I don't understand it/ racing thoughts is the only thing I can think to call it but that doesn't quite capture my experience.

Son, your exact description "revved up inside?" is what I tell my psychiatrist when I have told him of my very possible ADD, non-hypper kind. I'm not diagnosing you. I just know me and my symptoms and so much points to ADD. I describe it as "driven." I feel driven in intensity and when my racing thoughts jumble up on in my head, I feel unable to concentrate and it's like there this noise in my head I can't quite make sense out of it. I took Strattera and it did help. Long story, but I've told my pdoc about this in the past too. I brought it up again because it hampers stuff in my life. I easily become overwhelmed with so much. Etc. Anyway, just wanted to share...

I understand. I have no advice other than to GOYA and do what you can with what you got, put the engine into drive when possible.

Petition to add "soul darting through extra dimensions" to the DSM anyone?

Restless, anxious, pent up energy. I think that this is common in everybody this year emerging from winter but especially in those with bipolar. We've been hibernating and the days are getting longer and many of us spring forward which messes with our biological clock/circadian rhythm. I would try to relax more and make sure you're getting plenty of sleep.

Thanks to everyone for their support and understanding.

voracious_lemon wrote:I understand. I have no advice other than to GOYA and do what you can with what you got, put the engine into drive when possible.

Yeah, I work 45+ hours a week at my job and about 20 more on personal pursuits. So, yeah, fairly productive.

I often fall into a "manic stupor", which i assume is similar to the revved up feeling. Except for me, the stupor is peaceful and almost a break from the chaos inside and around me.

What you're describing is restlessness. Having nothing to do is the ######6 worst, i hear you.

Knoxious wrote:I often fall into a "manic stupor", which i assume is similar to the revved up feeling. Except for me, the stupor is peaceful and almost a break from the chaos inside and around me.

What you're describing is restlessness. Having nothing to do is the ######6 worst, i hear you.

I did a bit of writing to try and capture my experience in more specific and less imaginative ways. Restlessness and agitation seem like the best words to capture it. I've just not experienced it to such a degree before that it was hard for me to understand what was going on.

I had plenty to do that day. I was at work but could not focus because of this feeling. Though I've had a kind of restlessness in an I want do something but have no idea what to do with myself kind of way. Like agitated boredom. This was different. This felt more violent and aggressive.

So you weren't just bored and fidgety, you felt like you were about to explode with energy, it sounds like. I bet you'd be a monster in the gym if you chose to go there.

Knoxious wrote:So you weren't just bored and fidgety, you felt like you were about to explode with energy, it sounds like. I bet you'd be a monster in the gym if you chose to go there.

Ya know, I absolutely was a monster while I was lifting. I loved it. I should really get back there.. .

OMG. Exploding with energy. Yes!! The racing thoughts. It feels like my blood is racing. Like I couldn't stop moving even if I tried. And Lord, I tried today before going to ER.