by RiceBall » Mon Nov 04, 2013 5:02 am
I'm Bipolar, along with anxiety, bpd.. & other conditions. My anxiety is so bad lately.. well, for an example i had an extremely difficult time to even know what to put for a subject name, have sat here for over an hour toiling over what to say/if even bother posting. Also rapidly contemplating whether this should actually go under the bipolar section, or if i should post in anxiety. Probably over analyizing things as usual... This is my first post, but i've read around for about a month and some of what i've seen has been comforting & i've been able to relate to. Btw, still toiling over that subject title/category appropriateness here. I have anxiety about my anxiety, which escalates things. Would turn into a novel here if i start going into everything behind all this, so i guess i'll get to the point.. feeling bad it took me that long to do so already. SO, I've been on many many medications & combinations over the past 5 years. I've been taking lamictal for a while and it's worked the best for me thus far, but my anxiety seems to be a stagnant issue. however, pretty much any meds for anxiety/panic attacks make me pass out. This doesn't help as sleeping 4 to 6 hours creates another panic spiral on a "wasted time" issue i won't go into. So anyway, my doc wrote me a script for buspirone, and i had several call backs to him concerning reservations on taking a permanent medication through out the day vs when needed. <--- which after the calls, i feel a bit better, but i was out of town this weekend and didn't start the meds cause i didn't know how they'd affect me... I already have to take pills at day and night as it is. I know everyone's experiences are different, and i've spent probably 4 hours researching this online to get a better grasp. Have the bottle right here, and am SCARED to start taking it. Don't get the whole "no grapejuice" thing, and am concerned w/ the label on the bottle "may cause dizziness" etc. In kinda a panic attack right now, and i know the best thing to do again will be try to get a hold of my doctor yet again, just don't really know where else to go at the moment so i'm reaching out to the internet. I have anxiety a lot, but it's not necessarily 24-7, and there's a day here or there where i'm fine. i do suffer from at least mild panic attacks at least a couple times a week, sometimes more frequent and more severe. But i also deal with being over tired with the depression at times. Kinda a dice roll. So i'm super concerned about taking something permanently daily that is for quelling anxiety, if i'm not in a panic attack state. I've seen mixed good & bad tales from other sites, where the good helped, and the bad has worsened my current panic. Also concerned about weight gain as i have history/current battle with "eating issues"... so any weight gain is going to bring all that right back up and worsen things.. i saw a few accounts where people claimed they gained 30+ lbs because of it?? Didn't see many on the weight, so not sure if their gain is attributed to something else and assuming it was the pills... Hopefully i've said enough to help, i feel like i've written too much and no one will read or respond. Anxious about even posting, fighting with just deleting right now and forget about it, --thus i'm writing as such so hopefully my mind shuts the hell up about it to let me finish. ok, i'm just going to hit submit now cause i'm really fighting with just exiting the screen and not posting any of this, but part of my brain is saying that it can't hurt to post & i just need to do so. I do plan to call my doctor, i'm just not sure he's in tomorrow, so i would just feel better & greatly appreciate if anyone can help me out here in any way/share experiences with Buspirone?
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