formally diagnosed as bipolar then schizophrenia

I hear voices. They command me to do things. i think i am more schizophrenic than anything. but i also have these facets of me that sometimes show in my behavior. I'm not sure it is DID but i know i dissociate. And these alters i call them are more or less my voices talking through me. I let them talk. But I'm not denying they exist, but they are my voices caused by my schizophrenia. when i say i dissociate i mean i lose touch with reality. Jenny John, and the rest of them are voices. They never have full control over me. I am fully in control, but they speak through me if that makes sense. Sometimes i wake up and i see things like shadows in my room with a fedora, and sometimes i have bizarre dreams. I sometimes have distortions in my perception like i think my hands are growing and i see demon faces in my field of vision. the worst thing was a white face with bloody fangs looking at me over my shoulder smiling and then stepping back into the shadows. It whispered I'll see you tonight, and then i saw it again at the foot of my bed. it was a vampire looking thing, but it was a woman. closed my eyes and threw the cover over my head, and It pulled my covers back away from my face and then came close to my neck, and then i punched it, and it attacked me. I saw it again here recently. It opened my shower curtain, while i was taking a shower, and asked me"Miss Me?" and then Satan came out and told it it wasnt to bite me until i give him my soul. I don't know, but I'm wondering about the implications of that. I read one time Schizophrenia gets more fun when the things you used to see out of the corner of your eye stays there permanently and starts to move toward you and starts attacking you. I have seen Satan before this. He made himself appear as a shadow with a fedora with red eyes. My medication works though for all other hallucinations. I have learned to deal with this though. He has come back and asked me if i was ready to give him my soul yet though. This happens from time to time. Just talking about it usually brings them in my room at night.

Hi hon

That sounds pretty scary to deal with for you. Do you have any treatment for your symptoms at all? Hopefully something could be come up with to take away these distressing experiences for you. I dont mean necessarily the known voices as they may or may not be something disocciative but the other hallucinations. Sounds pretty complicated to all be managed. I hope things improve for you

Cracked

People who hear voices sometimes do describe them as being different people. They can each have their own personalities as well. For example, "Elizabeth" could be sweet and kind, while "Tom" could be mean and sarcastic. It would be good to describe this to your doctor though to make sure that they understand what you are experiencing. They will also be able to let you know if it is a possibility that it is DID, or just related to hearing voices.

The things that you are describing that you see seem frightening. You are very brave to be able to deal with it all. I would also make sure that your doctor knows about these things as well. I know you stated that your medication helps with other hallucinations, just not the things that you see. Perhaps your doctor will want to make a medication change to try to help with these things. You never know.

My meds usually manage it just fine, but sometimes i have episodes.