Picking up the pieces

I am just wondering who has had to "pick up the pieces" after a serious manic or depressive episode? I'm guessing that's nearly all of us, but I could use some insight. After I was hypomanic and did some dumb things a few years ago, I had to work so hard to put my marriage back together. Luckily it all worked out. But now, after I had a serious mixed/depressed episode in October, I am still trying to put my life back together. The main thing is that I ended up leaving my job, and REALLY regret it now (and am having difficulty finding a new job). When I think about it all, it starts to depress me again. I am not typically a patient person anyway, so although I'm doing my best, it is still really hard. I am just curious to hear from anyone who has regretted things after an episode, and how you rebuilt your life without losing your sanity!

I've definitely had to pick up the pieces, several times in my life. The one good thing about having borderline personality disorder in addition to bipolar disorder is that I enjoy the chaos. I feel like my life has purpose to it when I'm picking up the pieces and fixing things again. A lot of times I try to just recreate a whole new me (another borderline trait). I guess how I'm able to put things back together without losing my sanity is to see it as an opportunity to create a life I want. (Not that life is perfect by any means at this point)

Wow...I wonder if I am borderline too sometimes...I can definitely relate to "recreating a whole new me." I am in the process of just saying oh well, I'm going to start over again and get a second master's degree in something totally different. A huge undertaking. And I have moved so many times, people ask me if my husband is in the military! (he isn't...I am just very restless!) LOL. But I can't say I'm enjoying the chaos anymore...it seems to be getting old for me now. I guess all I can do is try to be patient, and it will eventually get sorted out.