by jilkens » Sun Jan 20, 2013 1:42 am
Before you read about my experience, remember that meds don't act the same in everyone. This is pretty much a horror story, but my bipolar is turning out to be more on the mixed/manic side and that factors into things.
I've been on venlafaxine 3 times in my life. Each time was followed by a hospitalization. The first time was because the withdrawals caused me to become extremely depressed and suicidal, the second was because the medication caused me to become dysphoric and a harm to myself, and the third time triggered a mixed episode that was severe enough in nature to land me in the ICU after a suicide attempt. The only thing in common with each of these hospitalizations was the venlafaxine.
Even after the last suicide attempt, I stayed on the medication for quite some time because the withdrawals were too hard to handle. Eventually I ran out of money and had to quit cold turkey from a dose of 450mg. I blacked out for a while and that time period is a haze. In the end I came out of it and wasn't quite so dangerous to myself anymore.
Blame it on me, but know that I won't regret one iota.