Sometimes...

I'm great.

At times I am happy and I have nothing to complain about.

But then I start thinking...usually when I'm bored or alone. I think about depressing things. And then I get really angry about what I'm thinking about, usually a person that I find interest in not having any interest in me, or how this one boy won't take a hint and leave me alone. My head starts to throb, and I have urges to destroy things, and I get very upset.

And then I get these pains in my chest. It actually hurts. Right above my 4th rib on the left side of my chest. I fall short of breath, and I have to stop whatever I'm doing and lean over for it to stop hurting.

I also get headaches quite frequently.

I'll be fine and then if something goes wrong, or if someone does the slightest thing that will make me upset, I shutdown and avoid contact with anyone involved in the situation. I want to kill all of them. Even if the thing was tiny and a normal person would've shrugged it off. Then I get really sad and feel alone. Sometimes feeling lonely is a positive feeling for me; when it's a negative feeling then I go into a deep depression, but it only lasts a day.

Anyways, thats my story. I can't pinpoint any other term except for bipolar-ness. So yeah.. hi.

MightyRavendark wrote:I'm great.

At times I am happy and I have nothing to complain about.

But then I start thinking...usually when I'm bored or alone. I think about depressing things. And then I get really angry about what I'm thinking about, usually a person that I find interest in not having any interest in me, or how this one boy won't take a hint and leave me alone. My head starts to throb, and I have urges to destroy things, and I get very upset.

And then I get these pains in my chest. It actually hurts. Right above my 4th rib on the left side of my chest. I fall short of breath, and I have to stop whatever I'm doing and lean over for it to stop hurting.

I also get headaches quite frequently.

I'll be fine and then if something goes wrong, or if someone does the slightest thing that will make me upset, I shutdown and avoid contact with anyone involved in the situation. I want to kill all of them. Even if the thing was tiny and a normal person would've shrugged it off. Then I get really sad and feel alone. Sometimes feeling lonely is a positive feeling for me; when it's a negative feeling then I go into a deep depression, but it only lasts a day.

Anyways, thats my story. I can't pinpoint any other term except for bipolar-ness. So yeah.. hi.

You get depressed when you're alone but yet you put yourself in the crosshairs of drama when you associate yourself with other people.

You must realize why certain people are unimportant to you and abstain them.
Popularity, acceptance and attention are pointless and wont get you anywhere in life.

It's absolutely pointless to be upset about a person who does't find interest in you in a relationship/friendship because it takes two to have interest in one another in order to have a successful relationship/friendship, get over it.
It's stupid for somebody to act in order to impress somebody else, always remain true to yourself, don't let society influence your character, don't become a sheep of the herd.

I don't have any advice on your feelings, except keep yourself busy BUT....

You really should get an EKG, get your heart listened to, see if you have any ventricle or pulmonary/aortic blockages.

Getting all worked up can cause your blood vessles to constrict, but you shouldn't be feeling chest/heart pain.

HumanityExiled wrote:

MightyRavendark wrote:I'm great.

At times I am happy and I have nothing to complain about.

But then I start thinking...usually when I'm bored or alone. I think about depressing things. And then I get really angry about what I'm thinking about, usually a person that I find interest in not having any interest in me, or how this one boy won't take a hint and leave me alone. My head starts to throb, and I have urges to destroy things, and I get very upset.

And then I get these pains in my chest. It actually hurts. Right above my 4th rib on the left side of my chest. I fall short of breath, and I have to stop whatever I'm doing and lean over for it to stop hurting.

I also get headaches quite frequently.

I'll be fine and then if something goes wrong, or if someone does the slightest thing that will make me upset, I shutdown and avoid contact with anyone involved in the situation. I want to kill all of them. Even if the thing was tiny and a normal person would've shrugged it off. Then I get really sad and feel alone. Sometimes feeling lonely is a positive feeling for me; when it's a negative feeling then I go into a deep depression, but it only lasts a day.

Anyways, thats my story. I can't pinpoint any other term except for bipolar-ness. So yeah.. hi.

You get depressed when you're alone but yet you put yourself in the crosshairs of drama when you associate yourself with other people.

You must realize why certain people are unimportant to you and abstain them.
Popularity, acceptance and attention are pointless and wont get you anywhere in life.

It's absolutely pointless to be upset about a person who does't find interest in you in a relationship/friendship because it takes two to have interest in one another in order to have a successful relationship/friendship, get over it.
It's stupid for somebody to act in order to impress somebody else, always remain true to yourself, don't let society influence your character, don't become a sheep of the herd.

I don't get involved in drama. I don't want popularity, acceptance, and other #######4 #######1 things. Clearly. I get upset sometimes because I'm sick of #######4 that I can't control. Like how other people feel about me and I don't want them to feel that feeling... you know. You seem to have gone into a tangent that doesn't correlate with anything that I said.

afink87 wrote:I don't have any advice on your feelings, except keep yourself busy BUT....

You really should get an EKG, get your heart listened to, see if you have any ventricle or pulmonary/aortic blockages.

Getting all worked up can cause your blood vessles to constrict, but you shouldn't be feeling chest/heart pain.

I've mentioned it to my doctor before but she wasn't very concerned about it. Maybe I'll bring it up again next time I go there, I have a tendency to mention my problems but then shoot them down quickly trying to convince my doctor that I'm alright even though that's not what people are supposed to do...